2010 so far

We are officially 3 weeks into the new decade and I find myself jobless, single, depressed and frozen.  10 days ago I lost my job.  I know that I have written earlier that I was not happy about my job and that I wished to find a new focus, career, employment, but I never thought that it would come in this form, this quickly.  I thought that I would have until the end of the spring, but somehow things turned out differently for me.

I had worked for the same firm for the last 9 years and have understood clearly that I am very strongly defined by my job.  More defined than I want to be.  It is difficult when you do not have a partner/spouse or children to find yourself not defined by your job.  When others are talking about their happiness at home, I have had my job to define me.  Now that is not there anymore I feel lost.

I am very sad today. I am not sure how this will play out.  Right now I take every day as it comes.  This will be an opportunity to work on my mental health, to work on my physical health and to figure out what I want to do with my life.