I am desperate to write about my emotions these days but I cannot. They are tied up in work, in people that I interact with on twitter, in things that are going on with my family, with my friends, with my life in general. Many of which would hurt or expose me in a way that would not be good to write about here either by hurting the individual who is causing me turmoil, exposing some emotions that would be raw and come back and stab me in the back, and by talking about a workplace in an unfair way. So what am I to do??
So, I have decided to write the posts. There are 3 of them and just the process of writing the three of them and leaving them in my "drafts" inbox has made me feel a bit better. I have written about some of the challenges at work, that has helped. I have written about some of the feelings that I am feeling around some things that are going on with my family. I have written about some of the issues surrounding seclusion. What I have not written about and I know I have to, are the feelings of loneliness and attraction. These are too sensitive and difficult. I will get there, maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow, maybe in a month, but soon I will write about them and leave them in my drafts box and leave them there to be released potentially never. No one will get hurt, none of my emotions will be exposed to people that are part of the posts and most importantly everyone will be safe from my words, except me.
The daily (or close to daily!) rants and raves of a self-proclaimed princess as she tries to find her way through life's twist and turns........
Thanks for stopping by,
Princess Steph
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