last night.....

So I went to the event last night that I was not super looking forward to. it was FABULOUS!!! I wish that I could have taken more advantage of it. i went with a good friend and there were tons of single men. first time in my life that i was at one of these events and there were groups of men hanging out together. that never happens! it is always lots of groups of girls together and some men intermixed but never groups of men hanging out together. also they were older. a normal age like my age!!! shocking!!! anyway i didn't take advantage of it and i didn't. hadn't had enough to drink i think. it is a hard thing to do. it doesn't help that i am totally not feeling great about myself and don't really want to be out in public, let alone putting myself out there. no men met. that is fine. next time it will be better, hopefully........