Updating "101 things about me" and thoughts on goals

I just updated my "101 things about me".  I had written the list probably 2 years ago and I hadn't realized how out of date it had gotten.  Not many changes, but some key ones, mainly surrounding family and goals.  Recently it has become clearer and clearer to me that as I approach 35 in a year and a half and the ominous "I will have a baby on my own" is out there, I really want a family, not just a baby.  I want a husband/partner, I want children with that person who loves me and who will love "OUR" children.  I find it so sad that I have not been able to accomplish this.  This is truly the one thing that I want more than anything.   This is such an open sore in my life. It is there everyday.  Every child I see, every family I see, every pregnant woman I see walking down the street is like pouring salt in the wound.  It is unfair for me to feel this way towards these people and their happiness, but it is the way I feel.  I wish it was different, but it is not.  So 35 is approaching.  18 months away.  I have a lot to do in 18 months before the ominous "I will have a baby on my own" option B rears its ugly head as a harsh reality.