I have not written recently on my little blog as I have had some major changes occurring in my life and have nor known quite how to express how I feel about them. One of the major things that has happened is that I have decided that I am not dealing well with my current mental health and anxiety. It is not serious, but enough that the last time that I was at my doctor I spoke to her about it and I have had my Cipralex prescription increased to 30mg. I am now outside of the script for this drug as the max is 20mg, but for the first time in a long time, I am feeling a bit better.
Not normal, or happy, or regular, but better. I feel more even keeled. It is like I have just a bit more patience, a bit more time and can take a bit of a deeper breath. It is not that I have found happiness in these little white pills, but I have found something that is helping me to find some time to think about happiness and how that can happen. I am happy for that.
For now I wonder if I will take these little pills forever or not? Is this what it will be like for the rest of my life? Only time will tell.
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