We are officially 3 weeks into the new decade and I find myself jobless, single, depressed and frozen. 10 days ago I lost my job. I know that I have written earlier that I was not happy about my job and that I wished to find a new focus, career, employment, but I never thought that it would come in this form, this quickly. I thought that I would have until the end of the spring, but somehow things turned out differently for me.
I had worked for the same firm for the last 9 years and have understood clearly that I am very strongly defined by my job. More defined than I want to be. It is difficult when you do not have a partner/spouse or children to find yourself not defined by your job. When others are talking about their happiness at home, I have had my job to define me. Now that is not there anymore I feel lost.
I am very sad today. I am not sure how this will play out. Right now I take every day as it comes. This will be an opportunity to work on my mental health, to work on my physical health and to figure out what I want to do with my life.
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