Some days I'm really envious of...

The ability to feel envy is such an ugly trait that humans have.  I am amazed by its power.  I really try not to feel envious of things but some days I can't help it.  It creeps up on me when I least expect it and it is always about children and babies.

I have never been envious of peoples lives, there relationships, money, stature etc.  I was brought up believing that "there is always someone with a bigger house, better job, more money than me".  What that didn't include were people, children, family and love.  Those are where the evil envy comes to the surface and always relatively out of the blue.

TOday was one of those days.  I found myself shocked this afternoon to be in tears at a major intersection filled with strollers.  I just couldn't deal.  All of these people and couples with babies and children and at the end of the day families.  I am not proud of how i felt, nor am I proud to be writing about it here, but it was and is a raw and real emotion.  

To read an excellent view point on Envy, please visit the Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy's article on Envy.