Christmas craziness

Welcome to the holiday season! last night i had three Christmas parties. so fun, but crazy. it actually is going to be a rather dry holiday season. i don't seem to have as many invitations as usual. i am surprised but not. i have been out of the loop for so long with friends that i am not surprised that i am off the radar. it does make me sad though. can i really have alienated so many people?? i am on the way to making this better hopefully. i am trying to see people more and make more of a connection with people more regularly. it's hard and it sucks. i guess that i just need to try and be a better friend.